left out

you know that feeling when your bestfriend doesn't invite you to go out with 'em? you know that feeling when your bestfriend is being secretive ? you know that feeling when your bestfriend replaces you with someone else as she meets someone new? when she no longer share her secrets to you? when she no longer share her daily routine, reasons why she got angry with her boyfriend and treat you as if you no longer exist in her effing life? 

you don't know unless you went through it.

Sometimes I don’t know whether it’s because I did her wrong or she’s having PMS ?

Or this is a karma for me or maybe a lesson ?

I found this one quote saying;

Perhaps I don’t deserve nice things, I’m paying for sins I don’t remember.

Fine. I’m gonna get through this because this is not the first time of me being left out. Also not the first person who treated me like this. I should’ve get used to it. Lol

This is why I learn to be more independent and not to rely on others . But it doesn't mean that i don't mix up with people. hahah